I wrote this and I put it up on myspace but I'm going to be deleting that soon and not sure where this is saved on my computer so I'm putting it here so I'll never lose it :) I go back and read it every now and then and it amazes me because I never thought I could write something so deep. God definitely inspired me to write that and I'm glad he did, even if no one ever reads it, it's good for me to look back on and see how amazing God really is! =)
The Perfect Father
When I was being formed in my mothers womb, you protected me and molded me to be what you wanted me to be. When I came out and was scared and confused you were right there to comfort me. When I learned how to walk, you held my hand so I wouldn't fall, and when I did you picked me back up. when I had nightmares or was scared of the dark, you were there to put your arms around me. When I learned how to talk and disobeyed my parents for the first time, you weren't proud, but you still never left my side. when I accepted you into my life, you sent a part of you to live inside me to guide me, and you were pleased. When I lied to my friends or was selfish, you were dissapointed. But you never walked away from me. When i went to church to learn about you, you were happy. when i did things to hurt people intentionally, you forgave me and didn't leave. When i went to High School and started to conform you tried to tell me not to, but slowly i started to push you away and ignore you, but you still followed me wherever i went holding out your hand to me. When it was time for my Dad to go be with you, i didn't want anything to do with you, i cursed at you, blamed you, rejected you, and did bad stuff on purpose just to "get back at you" and show you that i didn't care about you.You were hurt, but you never got mad, never gave up, never loved me less, you were still right behind me holding out your arms telling me that if i turned around, you could take away my hurt. when i finally realized that you do care about and love me i asked you to forgive me and without hesitation, you wrapped your arms around me and never once remembered what i did to hurt you.When i had my 1st Boyfriend, and took all the focus i had for you on him, you were hurt, but again you just followed me extending your hand for me to grab. When things didn't go well at all and i felt like my heart was broken into a hundred pieces, you were so close behind me that you caught all the pieces, put them together and carried me.When i finally realized the fact that you will never leave me, break my heart, judge me, forget about me, or hurt me i knew that in spite of all i did that didn't honor and glorify you, you were always there, waiting for me to hold the hand that you extended to me when i was born, and i did, now it's you and me walking hand in hand, and your taking me somewhere Iv'e never been, revealing little by little the amazing future you have in store for me. Thank you for always being there for me and never giving up on me. I love you so much.
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